Sometimes I wonder if people are truely frightened of people who are kind and friendly. I know that last fall, I thought it was almost unreal when the people in the marching band at a school I visited were friendly enough to provide dinner, provide water and all made at least one friend in our band. I practically expected a monster to jump out at me at any second. It was kind of unnerving.
I like getting to know people and making new friends. Even if I have only met a person once or twice, if I think they're a good person or have traits that make them a good friend, I will keep in contact with them. I will send them friendly texts and try to talk to them. If they're doing something, like maybe they have a band, or they play a sport (that sort of thing), then I try to go out and support them.
Yet when people don't return my messages, I feel like the awkward, over-friendly freak. I start to think that they think I'm weird and embarrassing and awkward. Then it just spirals into my own paranolia from there. I worry a lot about what other people think of me. When people make remarks about me, they have no clue how much it affects me. Is that normal, or is it just me?
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